Shyness

知らない人、怖い人は泣いて拒絶できていいなとか思ってしまった。

I thought it would be nice for strangers and scary people to cry and refuse.

経験がないから怖いのも当たり前だけど、経験を積んでも変わらないよね。それが性格なんだから。

It's natural that I'm scared because I have no experience, but it doesn't change even if I gain experience. Because that's the personality.

でも彼女は私より今の所明るく笑える赤ちゃんのように思う。

But she seems to be a brighter and more laughable baby for now than I am.