Lazy

周りの大人に頼りだらけた休日だった。

It was a holiday that depended on the adults around me.

でも寝られる環境なのに寝られないのが残念だ。もったいない。

But I'm sorry that I can't sleep even though I can sleep. It's a waste.

こんなに自分に甘くて人生のしっぺ返しがきそう。それに備えての温存だとも思う。

It's so sweet to me that I'm likely to have a hard time in life. I also think that I will be prepared for that.