one year ago

365日前、生きているか曖昧だった私の子供の胎動がわかった足で赤ちゃん本を買いに行った。

365 days ago, I went to buy a baby book with my feet that showed the fetal movement of my child who was alive or vague.

それまでは生きているかどうかはっきりしてよとモヤモヤした3週間だった。日記に記されている。そして生きてて良かったと希望に満ちていた。

Until then, it was three weeks when I was confused about whether she was alive or not. It is recorded in the diary. And I was full of hope that it was good to live.

そして一年後、こんな形で生まれて手術をし、までは少しは想像したが、疫病が流行り経済が大不況になり海外にも行けない状況は想定外すぎる。今後どこまで未来に希望を持てるのか。

And a year later, she was born in this way and had surgery, but I imagined for a moment, but the situation that I could not go abroad due to the epidemic epidemic and the economic depression was too unexpected. How much hope can we have for the future?

またあの日のように希望を保ち来年を迎えられるのかな。

I wonder if I will be able to hold hope and welcome next year like that day.